I love jesus but he doesnt love me :(?

i just got beaten and d by a cop yesterday and my whole family was just shot in a drive by shooting last week. also the doctor told me this morning i have a urinary tract infection :( is god mad at me or do i just have really bad luck ? if god hates me than why, i love him and i just sold my house and gave all the money to the church and i just came back from missionary camp two weeks ago and at missionary camp i spent 3 years preaching the word of god to african villagers and helping them build a farm and plant a well. i love god so much and he hates me boo hoo hoo :( ?